Well, after three doctor visits in three weeks, Blake finally seems to be feeling much better. Its hard trying to diagnosis what's going on with a baby since they can't really tell you how they're feeling and in a large part comes down to trusting your instincts. Even though Blake was fighting a bug in his tummy, he was still a happy baby and we've had a really fun last few weeks. The weekend before last was Brad's birthday. We enjoyed a night out with friends to dinner and to see the new Batman movie (greatness), laying out by the pool and a nice meal with our parents. Blake dressed in some fine looking duds for his daddy's birthday lunch...



For those of you that know us well, know that by Brad and I having a boy, it is a given for our son to grow up in a hockey rink. We often joke Blake will learn how to skate before he'll learn to walk. We are without a doubt a hockey family. Even though we see Blake's future in hockey skates, doesn't necessarily mean that Blake sees his future in hockey skates. But if this past Friday night is any indication of how Blake feels about the sport, he will be practicing his slap shot a few years down the road. While I've taken Blake to a few of Brad's hockey games since he's been born, we haven't actually gone inside the rink since its a little cold and he slept through his games anyways. However Friday night we sat inside the rink on the bleachers. Blake woke after the first period and sat the rest of the game on one of his "Auntie's" laps, not fussing once, intently watching the game in front of him. I have never seen my child sit for such a long period of time in the same position. He was completely fixated and loved every second watching his daddy win his game.



Of course watching such an exciting hockey game would wear anyone out!



I have been on a mission the last few weeks, but have failed to complete it. I partially believe Blake is causing me to fail on purpose as a fun game. What is this mission? To capture Blake's smile on camera. Blake has been smiling more and more and it completely melts my heart and makes any rough patches completely worth it. I desperately want a photo of the sweet smile, however every single time I go to grab the camera and snap the photo it is gone. As soon as I am done snapping the photo, there is the smile again, then gone as soon as I try again. I really do think its a game to Blake, but I will keep trying and hopefully in the coming weeks I'll have a photo to prove to all of you just how sweet his smile is. In the mean time you can enjoy these other random photos of the boy.

The Joys of Daycare

Well, Blake has reached another first, although this one is nothing to celebrate. After only one week at daycare Blake picked up his first virus. Fortunately, Blake is still cooing and smiling and seems completely unfazed by the bug in his stomach. Mommy and daddy on the other hand are immersed in what seems like an endless number of icky diapers. We are all hoping this ends quickly and according to the doctor should be gone by the end of the weekend. I knew Blake would become more sick more often, being exposed to all the other babies and people in daycare, but I had no idea it would happen so quickly. I guess the positive that you have to take from the situation is his immune system will get built early in life possibly preventing many sick days once he starts school. Its been a rough week...with Blake being sick and just still trying to get used to being away from my baby all day and finding the energy to get through the days after not getting much sleep at night. I will keep repeating the mantra, "it will get easier, it will get easier". I'm sure some days and some weeks will be better than others, but this one I am more than ready to be over.

2 Months

Its hard to believe 2 months have passed since Blake Logan entered the world yet somehow it feels May 7th was forever ago. The pain of labor and recovery is a blur. I think that is nature taking its course...letting me forget those memories so that I will want to have more children one day. Blake has been such a joy and brought even more love into our home. I can't help but think of those Johnson & Johnson commercials..."Having a baby changes everything". It is something you know is true before you have children but don't completely understand until you hold your baby for the first time.
I have loved spending the last two months at home with Blake. It is time I will always treasure. Monday was my first full day back into the real world (work) and Blake's first day at daycare. This week has been way harder on me as Blake seems to be totally unphased by his new surroundings during the day and has gotten a glowing report each day. I on the otherhand, am thinking about him constantly throughout the day, terrified he is crying and I won't be there to comfort him. Sad that I'm not there to feed him and sing to him and love on him. Sad that I may miss some of his first milestones. I love my job...I love what I do and the people I work with. But it is most definitely a no win situation. I'd probably regret the decision to stay home full time and long for the days of adult interaction, but the decision to stay at work currently fills me with sadness and guilt. Its the guilt of a working mom and while I know it may get easier with the coming weeks, it is something I know that will always be there. For now, I try to focus on the positives...We found an amazing day care that I could go on and on about and I know Blake is in great hands there and will be socialized and worked with developmentally and that is great.
Blake is already such a big boy and of course I think is the best looking and smartest baby ever born! He is starting to smile which when he smiles at you is probably the best feeling ever, lifts his head up, stands up with just the help to balance him and is cooing up a storm and has long conversations with me and his daddy. Blake went for his 2 month checkup yesterday and is weighing in at 12 lbs 11.5 oz and is 23 1/2 inches long. According to the doctor he is just perfect and I tend to agree!
Blake has made being new parents so easy and we feel so blessed to have such a good baby. I also feel blessed to have the most amazing partner through all of this. Brad is such an amazing dad and husband. The love he has for Blake is endless and the support he has given me through all of this has been absolutely amazing. I didn't think it was possible but my love for Brad has grown leaps and bounds since Blake was born.
I love our new family, am enjoying each moment, storing all the precious memories away and am so excited to see what each new day will bring.