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So in case you didn’t get it from the picture…I’m pregnant! Mr. Blake is going to be a big brother and he couldn’t be more excited about it!! He has let us know he doesn’t care if it’s a brother or a sister, just can’t wait to have someone to get into lots of mischief with! We feel truly blessed to be adding another addition into our family. Its hard to believe we were told around a year and a half ago that our chances of conceiving naturally were only 15% with an 80% chance of early miscarriage, but here we are with one very healthy and perfect little boy and one more on the way. Yes, a teeny tiny part of us is a little scared to think about life with two babies only 17 months apart, but this lil bean that is growing has already brought so much joy into our lives and we wouldn’t have it any other way. With losing Odie and everything we’ve been going through in regards to my mom’s health, having such a little miracle to focus on is such an amazing blessing to our family.
So in case you were wondering, my due date is October 16th. And in case you were wondering how I’ve been feeling through the first trimester? Well, I have been miserable. Brad the Great, as I’ll start calling him, has had to pick up so much extra slack with Blake as I’ve been struggling on a daily basis with feeling well enough to function. He has been so patient through all of this and I know is able to get through it the same way I’m able to get through the ickiness…we know there is light at the end of the tunnel…I will eventually feel better and at the end of this will be the sweetest reward…a new baby in our arms to love. Stay tuned to the blog for many more updates on our family as we transition from family of three to family of four!!
p.s. – Update from post below…Great news all around…Mom was released from the hospital today! We hope home is where she stays from here on out. Thanks for all your thoughts and prayers.
Do you ever feel like the sky is falling down on you? Yesterday I felt like I might crumble into a million pieces or break into a sobbing fit at any given moment. It was just one of those days. I would like to say I can normally deal pretty well with a lousy hand of cards that might have been dealt to me for a day, week, year, whatever…but yesterday not so much. Tuesday morning I received a call from my dad in tears, which is not a normal occurrence so you can imagine my panic. My mom had been admitted back into the hospital on Monday with what they thought was pneumonia. My dad was calling me to let me know that Tuesday during her dialysis she had a full blown seizure causing the doctors to have to call code blue and try to get her breathing on her own again. She was taken immediately to ICU. I spent the rest of the day at the hospital with my dad, being there for each other for support. I got through that day just fine. So why not yesterday? Maybe it just was all starting to sink in and it was just a bit all too much to take. The lack of sleep I’ve been getting didn’t help either. I went to leave my office after work yesterday to rush home to have a few minutes to decompress before mommy duties took over only to turn the car key and nothing happened…dead battery. What a perfect ending to my day. But you know what, it turns out that when I got home and in crawled Mr. Happy Pants, AKA Blake…he really did turn my frown upside down. I am beyond grateful for that little boy, beyond grateful for my wonderful hubby and beyond grateful for a new day with a better perspective on the world. Keep my mom in your prayers….
I might not feel great, might feel down about the events in my life, but there is a constant spot of sunshine in my life. How can you not look at this boy and have your heart overflow with joy and happiness? 
My beloved Odie dog...today I had to say goodbye to one of the best friends I've ever had. Odie was the smartest, sweetest, most loyal dog I have ever met. He gave me love every day of his too short life and will be missed more than words can say. It wasn't supposed to be his time yet, there was lots of years left to love each other and I hate that I won't have his snuggles or kisses or sweet presence in my life any longer.
My mind is racing of the memories we shared. Odie was such a large part of Brad and I's lives. Odie was our present to one another on our dating anniversary 6 1/2 years ago. He was there to welcome us back from our trip to Colorado where Brad and I got engaged the following month, he was there when we bought our home, when we got married, when we brought Blake home from the hospital...
Even in only the 10 months Blake knew Odie, Blake loved Odie so much. Odie could make Blake smile by doing nothing at all, Odie is the first thing that made Blake have a real belly laugh. I am sad that Blake won't come to truly know Odie.
Odie was running around fully of personality one day and couldn't walk the next. I know Odie is in a better place now, afterall, all dogs go to heaven, and he doesn't have to be scared or suffer any longer as he probably had the last few days. Brad and I both were able to hold him and love on him one last time today and even get a few Odie kisses before we had to say goodbye. It still doesn't seem real...a world without my Odie in it. But Odie will always be in Brad and I's hearts and memories. We love you sweet Odie and you will be missed more than I could ever say...
