Why I Hate Doctors and the Three Letters I Hate Most

I've had some big time frustrations over the last 15 months with doctors when it comes to Brady's health. It is maddening! Took Brady to the doctor on Friday, was tested for flu, which was negative and the pediatrician said he knew he didn't have RSV so didn't need to even bother testing him. Now its Sunday and we just got back from Children's Hospital. Diagnosis...RSV. So annoyed with the pediatrician, so upset that we are going through this...again. Brady has lost almost the entire pound he worked so hard for over the last three months to gain. That alone sent me into tears. Guilt, guilt, guilt is what I'm feeling at the moment... And heart break seeing my sweet boy in such misery. Prayers he recovers quickly.

At Peace (kind of)

So I've been carrying around this huge weight on my shoulders... do I stay or do I go?? Do I quit my job and join the ranks as a stay at home mom to make sure I'm doing all I can for Brady's health OR do I stay at my job, risk my sweet baby's health to prevent a financial strain on our family, allow Blake to stay at the school he loves with his friends and keep being a working mom, the only type of mom I've known how to be. It may sound like an easy decision but please don't judge. My stomach has been in knots over it, I've shed many tears over it, I've lost sleep over it. Its been probably the only thing I've talked to Brad about the last few weeks. One day I felt one way, the next the other. It was a decision I couldn't take back after making and I didn't want to choose wrong, if that's possible. I just wanted a sign, a clear sign of what to do. I got that sign on Monday at work, came home, talked to Brad and by the end of the night we had made the decision I would leave my job. I immediately felt at peace with my decision. Immediately felt all the stress melt away. I felt happy, excited, focusing on the positives staying at home with my boys will bring our family.
My boss was out of town, so I gave my official notice this morning. Is it ironic though that the same day I give my notice at my job I get a call in the afternoon that Brady is running a fever and needs to be picked up? Just further reassurance I have made the right decision. Brady has a horrible cough. Horrible diarrhea. And his fever was 101.7 when I gave him Motrin and it started to come down. He is miserable. And of course now I'm wondering what the heck took me so long to make my decision and feel oh so guilty.
I pray this little doodle bug can fight this bug quickly, no hospital visits please, and doesn't lose too much weight. This poor little boy just can't take that. Neither can his mommy.

Resurfacing

I haven't posted in a few weeks...I've been kind of a giant stress ball. I'm still trying to sort out Brady's health issues and my job and everything in between and, well, life is kind of hard right now trying to get things figured out. But I felt like resurfacing for a post. Don't be surprised if I go back to radio silence for a little while after this though!
So, we had snow, what I think was forever ago now. Here in McKinney we had 5 1/2 inches, which was kind of a lot to us! The boys' school had a delayed opening the following day and I think everyone at my office thought I was crazy for getting there so late since they had like a drop of snow on the ground further south. Blake absolutely loved it! Darcy too!

Yesterday Brad and I got to experience part II of our Ultimate Cowboys Fan Experience. Diana felt bad that she only gave us a "Diana Version" guided tour when we went to the game last month and she had always wanted to take the "official" guided tour herself, so she made a call and scored us all free tickets for a guided tour. When we got there we met up at the check in area and then started to walk with a huge group of people for the tour to begin and the guide got a call on his walkie talkie, "Tell Diana's group to get off the elevator." Ha! It turns out we had a private tour, which was even more cool! The tour was a little different than normal. 1)NFL has the stadium in lockdown mode for Superbowl preparations, which changed what we could see a little bit. Plus the star wasn't on the field anymore since they've already changed the field for the big game, so no photo op on the 50 yard line. 2)Martha Stewart was there filming a segment for her show, so couldn't go in one of the areas they normally let you. (We ended up actually getting to see Martha from a distance and would have gotten to meet her because Diana's coworker she is friends with was escorting her around, however the guys preferred finishing our tour. Diana and I were kind of bummed!!) 3)We had Diana with us so we actually got to see a few things most people don't and learn some other fun facts even the tour guide didn't know. I think the tour last longer than normal, we were there for 3 hours! So many cool facts, but I won't bore you with them here or the one million pictures we took. Here are just a few.




Martha with Jerry and wife...Brad's favorite player DeMarcus Ware was there too
And it was crazy to see how many extra seats they are shoving in the stadium. Normally there are party plazas which they've taken out and put seats in their place. There are seats all the way up to the tip top.
And I had to snap a picture of possibly the worst Superbowl seat EVER. You will be looking at the people in front of you and concrete. And I'm sure paying thousands to do so.

Big Boy Do!

I have a history of putting off the first hair cut. I guess it just feels like it means my little baby is no longer a baby and I have to come to terms with that. But I was tired of the comments (ahem, Aunt Rhonda) and I knew Brady really needed to get rid of the SHAG. So we finally did it. He is so handsome and looks like the big boy he is! *By the way, yes that is a bruise on his cheek. Brady fell at school and hit his face on a wall. Next day, fell and hit his eye. Poor guy!*

Last picture before losing the shag. Have I mentioned I love this boy's smile?!
About to begin...
We timed the cut right before nap time, which could have worked either in our favor or could have spelled DISASTER. Brady was SO good. He looked like he was going to fall asleep the whole time and just seemed to enjoy it. He is such a good boy. Here he is with a temporary faux hawk looking rather sleepy.
Lupe at work on cutie pie's new do...
ALL DONE! And SO HANDSOME!

Here is Blake digging out what was supposed to be Brady's prize for being such a good boy. Brady was more than willing to let his brother claim the loot however.
And the last snap shot of Brady showing his big boy hair off. LOVE this lil man!